2024 Sucked.
Okay, so its been a while. A long while. So now it’s alomst three whole months into 2025 and I’m just now logging back in to give some updates about last year. So, 2024 sucked for me. It was a tough year hopping job to to job, really unsure of what I was doing and where I was going. I moved to a whole new city. And felt really alone. I crashed out, quit my job, and moved home for a while during the end of November through December. To say I was having a tough time is an understatement. With all that time I was home I decided to at least record how I was feeling and make something out of it. I uploaded a video titled “2024 sucked”. It got quite a bit of views( it was like 200) for my tiny channel and like 20+ new subscribers, but it got me excited. Heres the video. lol try to enjoy.
Mid 20s-A Journey
Mid 20s is a project I had been working on since October of 2023. After graduating college May of that Year, going home for the summer and then moving in with my boyfriend with no prospects of a job in entertainment. Disheartened was an understatement. As the months flew by i sank deeper and deeper into a depression while I mindlessly consumed content. I was fed up, if everyone else out here can make content so can I. So it began, for three months every day I had off work I spent some time working on this project. The Goal: Convey the feeling of loneliness and lose of your twenties. I took every emtion I had felt since graduation and put them into film. I believe I conveyed this feeling well and hope that others can relate to this film. The ending was something I truly struggled on which at some point I just ended up saying “Lauren this is your story you don’t even know how it ends.” Every story doesn’t have a happy ending sometimes a ending can just be a beginning to the cycle till you find the ending later.
“In the Abyss”-A short film
As someone who has struggled with body image basically my whole life, I decided to make a short about it. A real and deep film about the aftermath of doomscrolling and comparing your body to others.
Hey there, so I decided to make this video after having a really tough week with my body image. I think that a lot of women can relate to always feeling like they are comparing their body to others. For most of my life I have struggled with my body image. Always comparing and wishing I had the bodies of other women. Me, being a 5’ 7” female with a muscular build, it was really difficult to feel that I could be dainty and feminine. I made this short because we all can fall into that abyss while scrolling through the internet. It starts off by looking for outfit inspiration then down the rabbit hole of comparisons. The reason I ended the video on a sad note is because, in real life, you usually, end up just feeling sorry for yourself in the end. I just didn’t think it would be right to try to act like everything just goes away and back to normal. Fixing the way you view your body is a long hard road. It’s a lot of faking it till you make it. As well as an enormous amount of patience. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the video. Thanks for watching.